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| It's that time of year again...the year end...
When I read back to my blogs, I feel that same feeling again...
The human race is so selfish..everyone is so trapped within their own lives, that no one would stop, and take a look at the people around them. Everyone has different lives, different social backgrounds, different everything, There are so many things that happens daily, but when YOU are living YOUR life, it's hard to notice the lives of others, maybe because we are trying to live our lives to out extents?I don't even understand myself anymore, I don't think anyone does, we all figure out new things about ourselves daily, am i right? we are all born into a selfish world...we don't care much about others... is it because we were trained to become like this? our media, our teachers, the people around us? all of them influence us as we influence them, it's like a never ending cycle..
we all just want to please ourselves, even though people may act like we care, deep down, we mind, we only care about ourselves and it's true, no matter what anyone says, because we were all trained to become like this..,
if we were not born into this type of world, just maybe we would be different, but really..who is to say that it would be anymore different?
One day we would still be introduced and intrigued by everything that attracts our attention..so we end up the same don't we? The only thing that shapes us are our experiences, because we learn from them, either good or bad, we still learn... I wonder if anyone just stops and thinks about this? I think about it sometimes, but I, too am also entrapped into this world.. it's hard to get out because everyone around me is the same, and to make it okay, I go along too, but maybe one day, I would like to get out and become something unlike what I have been taught to be...well, I'm tired, so this is all I will say for today,
until the next time I blog again, eh haha ...who knows when that will be? | | |
| 9/26/06
i wish i had the wings to fly free from this world
a world full of drama, emotion
just one day, i would wish i had amnesia,
i would wonder what would become of me?
another lost soul in the world?
or just the same things would happen?
I want to know, if i didn't know everyone that i know,
i want to know, if i didnt live in this world,
what would become of me what would become of everything that i have been through?
i guess a wish is just still a wish, dreaming is all that can be done, but somehow, i dont hope to dream anymore
because even though dreams come true, they never stay, as a relationship never stays, everyone you know in the world will die one day but i guess if i dont see it happen, i will still continue to take them for granted, i guess thats just me, theres no way i can change, or is it that im too selfish that i only think about myself and not others?
if its just that, maybe i would think of myself better off being by myself, but in reality, i dont know what it is..
im always lost in the world now, just waiting for it to pass, i have no idea where this road will take me, but i guess
it will just go on until the day i die, so i guess i will wait patiently for that day when i will. | | |
| 9/9/06
12:13AM
HI EVERYONE!!! I haven't updated my xanga in a while! but yeah, here's the time to update! Lately I have been stressing over work, college appls, scholarships, sats, act, homework, tests, finals, senior project, essays, and school...it seems i am driven to do some time management and hopefully i'll get organized soon enough! School has been exhausting and on top of that I have been attending work afterschool, so that leaves me with no sports ='[ I CRY! I wanted to do bowling and really make the team this year and also badminton, but I GUESS not ='[ work and college stuff is the priority right now, I guess I can worry about sports at a later time. Right now important dates are September 12, which is the deadline for the OCTOBER 14 SAT REASONING TEST( FOR ME) and also Nov 4th is the sat 2 for me! Act is on october 16! which is 2 days after my sat? -__- this is pure evil and pure bad!!!! but i only have soo little chances to take the act and sats now, so i need to take the best of what I can! well that's all i can update right now i guess...I am a little tired, I came back from work at like almost 10. and so i took a shower and ate a bit and took vicks 44 cough medicine because I have been sick for 2 weeks maybe and i am suffering from coughing a lot. -_- well anyways as i was saying..I hope everyone at school will be safe, all my family and friends to be safe and hope everyone will do good their senior year and try to get some stress off their backs like I am -_- anyways! I will go to sleep...and something really tragic has happened last friday, my dear friend, Irvin Pescador passed away from a forklift accident. I will always remember him and hope that he is in a great place or better place right now. I will miss him dearly and hope that none of my friends and family will come across these incidents of death... or serious injuries. Rest. In. Peace. Irvin! I will miss you and remember all that we had with everyone and Upward Bound! I hope everyone takes care of themselves and be safe! LOVE YOU ALL! THANK YOU FOR READING! if you are anyways, Love Roxana | | |
| meeting Lily tues&thurs 1-4
fri carwash-1-4
sat jamboree 9-4pm
ahhhh all for upward Bound, I hope I can go on the college tour...=/
welpz thats my schedule!!!
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| School's over yay me? lol...sigh it's not really over! I have like one week and i have to go to orientation for upward bound and then go to east coast college tour the next day and MISS the 1st week of Upward Bound =_= welpz im going to go to the meeting tmw with mom or bro to ecct parent meeting to prepare! welpz gonna be a senior soon -_- god im getting old >.< I wanna stay a kid lol cuz SATS, college applications, and ap/hp classes = to death from stress and frustration -_______- welp at least i have the summer to prepare for calculus? and better essay writing hopefully? welpz here's all my update, bye now! | | |
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